Antigone Journal #2

Timeline:
I'm pretty sure that the first thing Antigone did was speak to Ismene, because she wanted Ismene to be there once they buried their brother. But when it became clear that Ismene wasn't going to help, Antigone decided she would bury him by herself. She knows that if she does this she's going to die. she has to figure out certain things first. So then the last night she stole Ismene's clothes and make up and went to Haemon. She wanted to be with Haemon because she's insecure about whether he really loves her "as a woman". Like, whether he thinks she's really beautiful and wants to be with her because she still doesn't really understand why he chose her and not Ismene. But Haemon is confused and he laughs that she's dressed up so different than usual and so of course, she gets her pride damaged and they end up fighting and she runs out. She probably decides none of it matters anyway so she goes out and buries her brother by herself. Sneaking back in the next morning, which is where the nurse finds her.

Cool Stuff:
There's more imagery around waiting. Antigone is breathless and "[they stand for a moment silent and motionless]". Plus there is a lot of places where there's supposed to be "a pause". And everyone is waiting for different things or to hear the truth and Antigone is waiting to die.
Also, I thought that the relationship between Antigone and The Nurse was interesting as well. Because there is kind of this odd dynamic where the Nurse is almost like a mother, scolding her and worrying and such. But then, Antigone calls the nurse "dear" and flips it around and almost belittles Nurse and talks to her like she's a child and then Nurse ends up crying. Which is sort of weird, because even though the Nurse is like a mother, she's technically a servant. And Antigone seems to love the Nurse, but also works to almost trick her.
At one point, when the nurse asks if Antigone went to meet a lover, Antigone says yes. (Later, the audience realizes this is semi-true because she did go meet Haemon at one point), but she makes it sound like it's a forbidden lover because that's what the Nurse assumes. Antigone just goes along with what the Nurse assumes because then you don't really ever have to do any work. It's very "teenager-ish", just saying "Okay, or "Yeah, that's it" to whatever your parents assume so that it stops their questioning.
And then later she goes on to say "You are very powerful, Nanny" almost building her up and then making her seem powerful again. Also, switching to "Nanny" which makes herself sound younger and innocent. It's very interesting how she flips around when she's talking to the Nurse in order to manipulate the situation.